I WISH I HAD NOT MARRIED HIM
This is just a short story of my life, my gests, my miscalculations and assignment learnt.
My name is Natasha and I’ve to say that I’m a beautiful, intelligent and youthful christian lady. When I turned 30, the pressure to get married from my family and cousins was too important to handle. Did I mention that I ’m the only son, so you can imagine what the pressure felt like. At church people started saying that I had a spiritual hubby and that I demanded deliverance. The pressure came more violent similar that I came hopeless for marriage. My pastor introduced me to a certain man of God at a church reanimation who proposed marriage to me and said that God had told him that I was his woman.
To be honest I did not really love this man but I allowed effects would change and I would develop love for him. My pastor kept on encouraging me and I just said YES because of the pressure coming from family and also how people allowed being single means that you have a spiritual hubby. I informed my mama about this man and the marriage plans. she was really happy and set out to make enquiries about him and his family. She was happy because the man was also a pastor. I tried to explain my passions to my mama but she brushed me off and said that I should relax and with time I’ll get to understand and love my hubby.
We had our marriage and I came a wedded woman and hoped for a happily ever after life. My mama came to visit after my child birth and was speechless. She had to ask me if I was really happy and I told her not to bother. She wanted me to get wedded and I ’m wedded.
In summary, after 2 times of marriage with the verbal, emotional, cerebral abuse. I’m now disassociated. I came a separated, single mama at age 33 because I Married The Man Of Other People’s Dreams But Lived With The Man Of My Agonies.
The assignment i’ve learnt is to Noway ever give in to press from family, musketeers, society or wherever it may come from because at the end you’re the bone who has to live with the person and bears the consequence. Everyone blames me for what happed yet they’re the bones who pushed me. I was a strong praise and deification leader but now I lost it too. I just want to tell every woman not to give in to the pressure from people about marriage. Also realise that indeed a man of God is still mortal and they can make crimes so do not suppose getting wedded to a pastor is an express ticket to a happy marriage.